Anticipation Anxiety, Bane of my Existence

Here is the deal, as of the writing of this piece, I am awake and anxious. I am anxious because I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and I am terrified that I will not be able to make it. Right now, it is 11 pm and my appointment is at nine am tomorrow morning. I…

Just not the best day to be a introvert/ extrovert

I am able to talk about myself. Rather easily to be quite honest. Today, I did not really want to, but I did anyway. The reason that I did this is because I want to advocate for those with autism and all disabilities. Being autistic makes that hard sometimes.

Empathy replaced? Innocence is missed.

I have noticed a shift in myself, and it is one that I do not like. I have become less emphatic with other people’s situations. That is not to say that I have lost it completely, but it is something I want to put a stop to right now.

College, week one of being back

I am back at Millersville University as of last Saturday. Which would have been August, 26th. So far, I am doing well. Becoming acclimated to everything has proven to be easy for me this time around. I think this is due in part to a familiarity that I have with the system now.

Can you not be angry?

Temperamental. short-fused, hot-head, these are all words that have never been used to describe me. The reasoning is simple, I rarely get angry. I know that I have posted a couple times about being angry, but I think it is a good thing. When I should have been angry, this is in the past, I…

Conquered the Bus, now on to the car

I have been meaning to share this story with you guys for awhile, I just never got around to it.  At the beginning of my fall 2016 semester at Millersville I was terrified of public transportation. I had it in my head that I could not do it. So, in my conundrum, I posted to…

I want to be social, but I do not know how 

I am having a predicament. I am lonely almost all of the time. I want to hang out with friends, but I do not know how to approach anyone. Almost everything that I do socially was an invitation sent to me. I have never been an instigator in social interactions.  I want to fix this,…

Too scared to talk

“I’m not alright.” That is something that I should say more often. I do not though. I am concerned with how other people feel so I make myself miserable. I have not been using WordPress lately either. That is because there are people that I am with a lot that do not want me talking…

Sorry for the lack of Content

Hey everybody, I just want to apologize for not posting anything lately. I have been busy with other obligations. Come September there will be a lot!

Lack of Motivation is crippling

I want to do all kinds of things, but I do not do them. Why is that? There is a complete lack of motivation in me right now. That is part of the reason I have not posted in awhile. I do not know what to write about. I wish I did, but I am…

Habits that need to be broken

I am overweight. There is no way around it, and I always feel embarrassed when I talk about it. I am trying hard to not eat as much. It is not going well to say the least. I weighed 452 pounds the last time I was weighed on a scale that could weigh me. It…

I’m worn out, and it’s only Monday, I think

I am tired of being tired, but I have no idea how to not be tired. Being someone who cares a lot about a lot of different things, this should not come as a surprise to me. Getting emotionally invested in something can be rewarding, but also tiring. What to do? There are a few…