Ashamed of my own thoughts?

When it comes to sharing my thoughts on mental illness I am not usually one to falter in expressing myself. I have always thought of myself as an advocate for those who have a mental illness. Lately, I feel like I am failing at being an advocate for myself. I have come to terms with…

Regret? No, not really

I decided something today after yesterday’s rant. It has nothing to do with the rant, just consider that a shameless self-plug. What I decided is that I am going to be honest with myself. I lie to myself a lot, and that is not a good habit to have. The one that comes to mind…

Anxiety that does not matter, stuff that does matter

Had an unusual thing happen today. I had a panic attack. Now, some of you are confused, but let me explain. I had a panic attack and it did not matter. Calling it a panic attack is an overstatement in every sense of the word. It was an anxiety spike. What did I do to…

Anxiety over the small things

I had my first panic attack in two months this morning. It felt alien to me and I have to say that I enjoyed the feeling being abnormal. What I mean by this is that I have had points in my life where panic attacks were a daily thing. Admittedly, today’s panic attack was hard…

Back at School, Stress gets renewed

Being back at school has brought with it a sense of accomplishment and a sense of dread. The feeling of accomplishment is the fact that I am able to even go to school. That makes me happy. The sense of dread comes from the fact that I have no job currently. I am afraid that I will…

Conflict amidst the calm

My life is going great right now. It really is. I’m in a new house, I passed my course for the fall semester, I am, by all rights happy. Yet, there is something in the back of my mind that is bothering me and most of the time, I do not think of it. I…

I’m writing a book! For the past ten years?

I am sure a lot of you know about Game of Thrones and other epics such as that. What I bet you did not know is that I have built a world like that and that I have been writing a book about it for the past ten years! The reason I am bringing this…

Empathy replaced? Innocence is missed.

I have noticed a shift in myself, and it is one that I do not like. I have become less emphatic with other people’s situations. That is not to say that I have lost it completely, but it is something I want to put a stop to right now.

Habits that need to be broken

I am overweight. There is no way around it, and I always feel embarrassed when I talk about it. I am trying hard to not eat as much. It is not going well to say the least. I weighed 452 pounds the last time I was weighed on a scale that could weigh me. It…

Blogging!

I think this a great idea for others who blog. We need to expose to others the wonders of blogging! Hi Everyone, We want to create a directory for our subscribers to connect with each other. If you would like to share your blog, please leave a description about what readers might find if they…

With great anxiety, comes great opportunity

When anxious there are a lot of things that could be causing it. It could be social situations. social situations or social situations. It could be a lack of sleep All kidding aside, I have an anxiety disorder that inhibits me a lot. At least it appeared that way. Almost every time I experience anxiety…

Dungeons and Dragons, the game that broke my shell

I remember back to the first day I played Dungeons and Dragons (DnD) with great fondness. It was at a game shop called War and Pieces. I loved that place and miss it greatly.  The character I made was a human variant cleric. For those of you who do not know what that is, comment…