Overthinking again

I tend to overthink from time to time. This is not necessarily a bad thing, yet it troubles me when it happens. It has, unfortunately, become a habit of mine to react. My reaction is usually screwing up something. This is due to me overthinking something and then thinking some more on it. Thinking on…

Depression, why do you keep coming back?

I have been up for three hours and I am being torn down by depression this morning. It might be that I am super anxious and I cannot deal with that either today. I do not know what is wrong with me today. Therefore I am blogging about it. This seems to be a great…

Sharing switch up/ Anyone out there?

It seems that I have times when my writing is horrible. Then, on other occassions, my writing is almost flawless. I am looking mainly at the times that I write. The blog post that I posted earlier this afternoon was written Friday night and scheduled. With that in mind, I am going to do an…

Social Cues, wait, what?

I realize that having autism is both a blessing and a curse; a double-edged sword if you will. On one hand, my skills at memorization are fantastic, on the other, I am horrible at the mathematics of any kind. Also, on the other hand, I do not understand social cues whatsoever.

Why am I so worried?

Obi-wan may have been sarcastic in the gif that I used above, but I am doing a good job, yet I have been having doubts as of late about myself and it is affecting my daily life in unproductive ways. I am always worried that I am failing at something. It does not have to…

A place that should not feel comfortable, yet it did

I just left New York City. I have been there since Wednesday. I was there because I was attending a conference for journalism. I was quite content there, much to my surprise. Cities are usually a place I do not feel very comfortable in. All the people and all of the sensory things. I was…

Ashamed of my own thoughts?

When it comes to sharing my thoughts on mental illness I am not usually one to falter in expressing myself. I have always thought of myself as an advocate for those who have a mental illness. Lately, I feel like I am failing at being an advocate for myself. I have come to terms with…

Anxiety over the small things

I had my first panic attack in two months this morning. It felt alien to me and I have to say that I enjoyed the feeling being abnormal. What I mean by this is that I have had points in my life where panic attacks were a daily thing. Admittedly, today’s panic attack was hard…

Update on the test

Well, I took the test. I think I did well on the test too. I was freaked out throughout and it distracted me, but I got through it pretty well. It was a big confidence booster to me that I was able to feel like I did well on a test that had over 60…

The Anniversy that I wish would not take place

Do I have the strength to type this? That will be a question that will plague me throughout writing this post. This one is going going to be heavy and hard for me to type, but I need to get rid of this. I do not know if some of you remember my post from…

Back in the swing of things

With my last post, I mentioned I might start blogging again. I have decided to do just that and I will start in earnest on Monday, October 30th. Why wait? I need to clean some stuff up in my head to get into a spot where I am once again comfortable sharing with the internet….