Why am I so worried?

Obi-wan may have been sarcastic in the gif that I used above, but I am doing a good job, yet I have been having doubts as of late about myself and it is affecting my daily life in unproductive ways. I am always worried that I am failing at something. It does not have to…

A place that should not feel comfortable, yet it did

I just left New York City. I have been there since Wednesday. I was there because I was attending a conference for journalism. I was quite content there, much to my surprise. Cities are usually a place I do not feel very comfortable in. All the people and all of the sensory things. I was…

Ashamed of my own thoughts?

When it comes to sharing my thoughts on mental illness I am not usually one to falter in expressing myself. I have always thought of myself as an advocate for those who have a mental illness. Lately, I feel like I am failing at being an advocate for myself. I have come to terms with…

Anxiety over the small things

I had my first panic attack in two months this morning. It felt alien to me and I have to say that I enjoyed the feeling being abnormal. What I mean by this is that I have had points in my life where panic attacks were a daily thing. Admittedly, today’s panic attack was hard…

Update on the test

Well, I took the test. I think I did well on the test too. I was freaked out throughout and it distracted me, but I got through it pretty well. It was a big confidence booster to me that I was able to feel like I did well on a test that had over 60…

The Anniversy that I wish would not take place

Do I have the strength to type this? That will be a question that will plague me throughout writing this post. This one is going going to be heavy and hard for me to type, but I need to get rid of this. I do not know if some of you remember my post from…

Back in the swing of things

With my last post, I mentioned I might start blogging again. I have decided to do just that and I will start in earnest on Monday, October 30th. Why wait? I need to clean some stuff up in my head to get into a spot where I am once again comfortable sharing with the internet….

The Hiatus may be over?

Hello friends! I realize it has been a while since I have last posted on this site. There are quite a few factors that can explain this. The main one is this: life. With college back in full swing, I took on a lot of responsibilities and I took a lot more than I initially…

Anticipation Anxiety, Bane of my Existence

Here is the deal, as of the writing of this piece, I am awake and anxious. I am anxious because I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and I am terrified that I will not be able to make it. Right now, it is 11 pm and my appointment is at nine am tomorrow morning. I…

Just not the best day to be a introvert/ extrovert

I am able to talk about myself. Rather easily to be quite honest. Today, I did not really want to, but I did anyway. The reason that I did this is because I want to advocate for those with autism and all disabilities. Being autistic makes that hard sometimes.

College, week one of being back

I am back at Millersville University as of last Saturday. Which would have been August, 26th. So far, I am doing well. Becoming acclimated to everything has proven to be easy for me this time around. I think this is due in part to a familiarity that I have with the system now.

Can you not be angry?

Temperamental. short-fused, hot-head, these are all words that have never been used to describe me. The reasoning is simple, I rarely get angry. I know that I have posted a couple times about being angry, but I think it is a good thing. When I should have been angry, this is in the past, I…