I want to do all kinds of things, but I do not do them. Why is that? There is a complete lack of motivation in me right now. That is part of the reason I have not posted in awhile. I do not know what to write about. I wish I did, but I am out of topics currently. I talk about autism a lot, and I talk about anxiety a lot. Those are two topics that I have covered.
I stumbled upon a concept called the seven dimensions of wellness. Thinking of doing a post on that once I sort out my thoughts now that I bring it up. Wellness is something that I need to concentrate on for myself. Without the motivation to do so, I have not even bothered taking care of myself. All I have been doing for the past few days is feeling sorry for myself.
I was at a friends house for July fourth and I had a lot of fun. As soon as I left I got depressed. The whole weekend was a way to avoid my personal issues. I need to address these issues now. How do I go about that though? Everything is personal and I am not comfortable talking to others about it. Even my family does not hear about this part of my life.
To be honest, I think I am bored. Maybe if I used something like Mind Sumo or some other kind of intellectual website I would do better. It is unknown to me. I need to address the seven parts of wellness. If I would focus on them, I would do better. The main question that is in the back of my mind is, “What’s the point?”
I have a desire to live, but I do not have a desire to excel like I usually do. The fire that was inside of me is all but gone. Wanting to just make it through the day is not healthy. I feel like I need to make a difference in the world. Not all in one day, but I want my words to touch multiple people all over the world. Writing this post is helping, however.
It is surprising how strong of a coping skill my writing is. I need to further nurture this. Re-reading the paragraph prior to this was eye-opening. I realized that my writing motivates me. With that knowledge I am going to try to write daily. Whether it be on this blog or the blog for my internship.
Working on this post is helpful. With three revisions with increasing positive vibes coming from them was great. I am going to start writing creatively again. That is one skill that I have found lacking in my latest pieces.
Well, I am going to go write a short story. Thank you for reading. I will post again tomorrow!