Anxiety is taking me places

The title may sound odd, but let me explain. I am an anxious guy and if you have only read one post on here you probably know that. What am I getting at? I think I an anxious on purpose.

This is just a theory, but I think I act anxious because of the responses I get. As someone with autism, I find this perplexing. I usually do not want attention. I avoid it outright. I have a panic attack though and I tell someosomeone and I get a little interaction with some one. I am not saying this is a bad thing, but what I am saying is that in my own way I crave attention. 

People know me as being anxious a lot of the time and I feel anxious a lot of the time. I just think it odd that I get the most attention when I am scared or anxious. 

Think about it for a second. I post something on Facebook that I am having a panic attack or something of that nature and I get a response. I Think that society has become nurturing for the most part and my subconscious is tapping into that by giving  panic attacks. 

This is not right. I do not think that I should use mental health as a way to get attention. Accidental or otherwise. I do my best to contain my panic, but I continue to have a lot of panic attacks. I do not like having them at all. 

What are your guys thoughts on this? Is this even plausible? Especially from other people who suffer from panic, anxiety, or are autistic. I want to know how you guys deal with it.
Thanks for reading

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