As most people who have ever met me know, I am absolutely obsessed with Star Wars. It goes beyond merely liking it. I memorized the scripts of all seven movies so far. I am working on the Clone Wars currently, and do not doubt me getting there.
That being said there might have been a time where I didn’t like Star Wars. I do not remember this part of my life well with the exception of a couple of instances. These instances were when I was severely depressed and very hard on myself.
That is the actual point of the post. Not to lament over Star Wars, as much as I would love to, but to focus on a specific part of being depressed. The lack of interest in something you really enjoy can be a sign of depression in my eyes. It might be scientifically backed or something, but I don’t really think I need to prove it to you. Mainly because all of us have experienced some form of depression in varying intensities.
When you lose interest in something you love; it really sucks. Not only for you, but for those around you. At least that is how it was for me. People around me always ask me Star Wars questions. They try to stump me. No one ever has by the way, but when I lost interest I stopped doing what I loved. Researching Star Wars and reading Star Wars books. As a result of this I didn’t even answer Star Wars questions posed to me. I just ignored people who asked me the questions.
I know depression sucks, and losing my love of Star Wars was one of the most heartbreaking things about it. I couldn’t stay interested. I really wanted to, but I couldn’t. It really sickened me inside that the thing I loved wasn’t able to help me. I grew to resent it while I was depressed and soon hated it. When I climb out of the hole that is depression I quickly reconnected with Star Wars and it once again made me happy.
Loss of interest is just one of the symptoms of depression and for me it was one of the hardest parts. There are a lot more reasons that depression sucks, but this is a series so check in tomorrow for some more symptoms and my take on them.